time flies when you’re having fun.
it’s really hard to believe it’s Christmas again.
this has been a very quiet year for me in terms of writing/blogging. not including all the years i was away for college, this past year really felt like it was the first time i was away from home, the first time i was actually being an adult. I made a considerable effort to do away with a lot of old/bad habits, ultimately discovering that letting go can still be one of the hardest things to do. i’m still learning.
i made all my new year’s resolutions come to life. i set the bar pretty high, and yet i learned that even then, i still need to aim higher. a lot of what i wanted out of this year centered on the idea of self-reliance, but it would be a disservice to the people i love and cherish if i were to say that i accomplished all that i have now without them. in fact, i see now that so much of what i’ve been blessed with this past year was borne out of the presence of my closest friends. for that i am truly grateful, and for the first time i can see who and what really matters in the years to come.
this was an especially big year for me with regards to starting my career. just a year ago, i was stuck working in retail after graduation, fervently sending out resumes to research positions, praying to God that my science degree could actually be put to use. my prayer was answered with my dream job, and life hasn’t been the same since. it earned me the freedom i wanted, the chance to contribute to the pharmaceutical field(awaiting publication sometime this coming year after inclusion in my first co-authored manuscript), and the time to focus my energy towards applying to pharmacy school. unfortunately, holiday break was kickstarted with rejection letters and a subsequent bout of acute melancholia; it’s forced me to take the time off to reevaluate my goals and aspirations. i’m starting to understand resilience, and having the perspective to see that the door of opportunity is not truly closed, rather that, like always, i need to find another way around.
i’m grateful for my parents this year, and the evolution of our relationship with one another. its strange but altogether comforting to come back home, and realize that i’m just visiting. i suppose i’ve always waited for this point, but its still so surreal.
there’s still so much i want to do. i want to travel. i want to see the world. i want to wake up and breathe the air of a new city. its been a year, and it feels like i’m just scratching the surface of this thing called life.
